Change in Me.

People might think why the topic "Change in Me".starting on 16/5/2012,i'm no longer Siti Zulaikha binti Shaffiee that my friend and my family know.I'm completely changed.from a simple girl,happy go lucky,always smile although i'm having problem,wake up in the morning and smile although i've been crying for the whole night with heart full of love towards her lover.now i'm no longer like that.i lost my appetite,i cannot sleep at night,i cannot think wisely,wake up in the morning with swollen eyes,shivering all the time,fears to face the all day with people asking me,"zue,are u crying last night?.your eyes are swollen and red."i have to lie over and over that it just nothing.i just can't sleep last night.in my doa everyday to Allah,i hope Allah prolonged our relationship as i cannot bear with this all and i can't live like before without you.mama anad abah have noticed my changes.i'm afraid to call them and they will hear me crying.i hope i can hug my mama n share my sadness.i have been keeping this all alone till sometimes i feel my body going to be burst.

Copy by previous entry from movie. "If Only"

"today because of you what i learned from you,every choice i made was different and my life has completely changed...and i've learned that if you do that,then you're living your life fully...it doesn't matter if you have five minutes or fifty years,if not for today,if not for you,i would never have known love at all.so thank you for being the person who taught me to love