C.I.N.T.A

Saya hanya bertanya soalan2 ini sebagai peringatan utk kawan2.fikirlah dan jawab pada diri sendiri. Bacalah sampai habis...

"1. Adakah anda sanggup buat apa sahaja ?
2. Adakah pergorbanan anda lakukan setimpal dengan apa anda dapat ?
3. Adakah anda berasa bangga dengan tanggungjawab anda atau tertekan ?
4. Sanggupkah anda menghadapi risiko dikecewakan dan usaha anda selama ini sia-sia ?
5. Adakah anda pasti anda dapat mencapai cinta idaman anda atau ia hanya sekadar impian ?
6. Adakah anda dapat teruskan percintaan anda tanpa menggunakan sesenpun duit teman anda ?
7. Sekiranya dia tidak menjawab message anda adakah anda akan rasa rindu padanya atau pun marah ?
8. Mana satu lebih penting keluarga anda atau cinta anda ?
9. Mana satu lebih penting impian anda atau cinta anda ?
10. Mana satu lebih penting maruah anda atau cinta anda ?
11. Sekiranya dia cinta pandang pertama adakah kerana dia cantik ?
12. Jika dia berwajah hodoh kenapa anda cintakannya ?
13. Kalau satu hari nanti wajahnya cacat adakah anda masih cintakannya ?
14. Adakah anda berusaha untuk jadi cantik atau tampan hanya untuk dia sahaja ?
15. Sekiranya dia menjadi buta adakah adakah anda tetap berusaha untuk menjadi cantik atau tampan ?
16. Adakah anda masih berusaha untuk menjadi cantik atau tampan walaupun dia kata wajah anda sekarang suduh cukup baginya .
17. Sekiranya dia berubah sikap adakah anda masih cintakan dia ?
18. Sekiranya dia mati adakah anda mencari teman lain ?
19. Adakah anda dan dia sama taraf ?
20. Sekiranya berbeza adakah ia akan menjadi penghalang anda ?
21. Pernahkah anda luahkan perasaan anda ?
22. Sekiranya pernah adakah anda selalu lafaskannya ?
23. Adakah cinta anda diterima atau ……………."

Doa Seorang Kekasih...

Tuhanku,Seandainya telah kau catat,Dia milikku, tercipta buatku,Dekatkanlah dia padaku,Satukan hatinya dengan hatiku,Titipkan kemesraan antara kami,Agar kebahagiaan ini abadi. Dan Tuhanku Yang Maha Pengasih,Seiringkanlah kami dalam melayari hidup,Ke tepian yang sejahtera. Tetapi Tuhanku,Seandainya telah Engkau takdirkan,Dia bukan milikku,Bawalah dia jauh dari pandanganku,Luput dari ingatanku,Dan peliharalah diriku dari kecewa. Ya Tuhanku Yang Maha Mengerti,Berilah diriku kekuatan,Melontar bayangannya ke dada langit,Hilang bersama senja merah,Dan gelap pekat malam,Agar aku rasa bahagia,Walaupun tanpa dirinya. Dan Tuhanku Yang Tercinta,Gantikanlah yang telah hilang,Tumbuhkanlah kembali yang telah patah,Meskipun tiadakan sama dengan dirinya,Seandainya dia datang menemuiku&Cinta itu adalah cinta yang sejati dan suci,Seandainya dia pergi dan tiada menemuiku&Anggaplah cinta itu tidak wujud dari awal

Change in Me.

People might think why the topic "Change in Me".starting on 16/5/2012,i'm no longer Siti Zulaikha binti Shaffiee that my friend and my family know.I'm completely changed.from a simple girl,happy go lucky,always smile although i'm having problem,wake up in the morning and smile although i've been crying for the whole night with heart full of love towards her lover.now i'm no longer like that.i lost my appetite,i cannot sleep at night,i cannot think wisely,wake up in the morning with swollen eyes,shivering all the time,fears to face the all day with people asking me,"zue,are u crying last night?.your eyes are swollen and red."i have to lie over and over that it just nothing.i just can't sleep last night.in my doa everyday to Allah,i hope Allah prolonged our relationship as i cannot bear with this all and i can't live like before without you.mama anad abah have noticed my changes.i'm afraid to call them and they will hear me crying.i hope i can hug my mama n share my sadness.i have been keeping this all alone till sometimes i feel my body going to be burst.

Copy by previous entry from movie. "If Only"

"today because of you what i learned from you,every choice i made was different and my life has completely changed...and i've learned that if you do that,then you're living your life fully...it doesn't matter if you have five minutes or fifty years,if not for today,if not for you,i would never have known love at all.so thank you for being the person who taught me to love

I'm Not a Strong Girl =.='

you may see me smile when I talk, joke, and laugh but watch me when I'm not interacting with people watch the smile fade watch my eyes as the sadness returns..

The Rose...

Some say love, it is a river That drowns the tender reed Some say love, it is a razor That leaves your soul to bleed Some say love, it is a hunger An endless aching need I say love, it is a flower And you, its only seed It's the heart, afraid of breaking That never learns to dance It's the dream, afraid of waking That never takes the chance It's the one who won't be taken Who cannot seem to give And the soul, afraid of dying That never learns to live When the night has been too lonely And the road has been too long And you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong Just remember in the winter Far beneath the bitter snows Lies the seed That with the sun's love, in the spring Becomes the rose

Final Exam mode..what do u feel bout it??

7may till 15may is my final exam for semester 3...on the third paper which is hema,i stay up to do revision for 16 topics..for teory and practical..seriously it so heavy till i feel i want to give up.as i stay up or burn the midnight oil,i manage to cover all the topics.so on the exam day with confidence,enter exam.after 2 hours just Allah know how frustrated am i being not confidence with my answers.huhu..i just live it to Allah.the practical also goes same like theory.not confident at all..i came back to hostel and cry all alone..i talked to mama and i cry again.and rite know,i suffering of imbalance emotional..cry and cry as i afraid of hema's result..okay that's all i have to say.
Nyte people..enjoy ur life with beloved one before it ends up....

Fix You...

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

High up above or down below
When you too in love to let it go
If you never try you will never know
Just what your worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
And I..

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down on your face
And I..

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.

From Bottom of My Heart

It’s hard to accept, but you can’t change the past. You can’t go back and manipulate things to the way you wanted them to happen. Because life’d be meaningless and boring and just not worth living. But you can change the future and that’s a beautiful thing about life. Yes, you will make mistakes. And yes, you will have bad days - but as long as you let the past go, you’ll have such a gorgeous and bright future ahead of you. Knowing that things were meant to happen. Knowing that each day you will learn something so that you keep growing to be a better person. Life is like a rope, twined in all its complexities and yet weaved into one marvelous stream that you have the chance you use something amazing from. So grab hold of it and try to enjoy your life and appreciate the one you love while they are still alive....

Distance Makes the Heart Grow Fonder

My story has been in the making for about 4years now. My boyfriend and I met since we were in Form 1 but we started being a couple at the end of Form 3.Actually we attended tuition together. The first time I saw him in class, I couldn't stop staring at him.But i just can staring at for about 3 years as both of us have our own couple on that time.Seriously the feeling towards him really weird as i never feel like that before.I'm shivering when i got closed to him.Last time i saw him a month before we're having our PMR.A few weeks before exam results came out,I texted him just to ask him one of his friend's phone number but he answered me that he doesn't have her number.Starting onwards,we have been texted for about 24 hours and suddenly we decided to be a couple.What a short time.But it doesn't matter as both of us are single.After PMR's result have been announced,he scored so well.In Form 4,we attended the same tuition together but just a few of our friends know that we're dating means couple.Their reaction??shocked because we have never been talked since Form 1.

In February,he was offered by MRSM Langkawi to continue his study and he went for it.Pity me.Have been left lonely here in Kulim.What a depressed moment but he usually called me everyday till i have all the public phone number at MRSM.He just can bare to lived at Langkawi for about 6 months and he decided to come back and study at Kulim.After he returned,we have been sitting together at tuiton class.On that time,teachers and many friends know that we have been couple.This process of going to tuition continued until we finished our Form 5.Although we are not going to same school but our relationship go healthier.

When the last day of tuition came, we both couldn't speak. I just cried and he just held me tight. My mom drove up, and then he looked me in the eyes and said, "Promise me that we will stay together." Of course I promised.. and I said the same to him, and he said, "Always."

And now we have a long distance relationship between KL and Penang.
We have been together for 4 years and 4 months now. We try and see each other every time I went home even though its really hard since I live in KL and he lives in Penang. But we both love each other so much and I believe that we will stay together, I tried too hard to get him and I'm not letting go and I'm loyal with eventhough our distance are thousand miles.

IMPERFECT....

The only way to love is NOT by loving someone perfect but,
by loving someone imperfect perfectly....!!!

4 years,3 months,3 weeks and 3 days...

Alhamdulillah it has been for about 4 years and 3 months since we have been couple.I do love you and will always love you syg.Insyaallah our relationship will end with a happy and lovely marriage life and have a family together...amin....

20th Birthday

Finally,i'm twenty..no more teen..huhu..first tyme birthday without celebrate it with family n beloved one..huhu..i need u all here..smoga di usia yg meningkat ini,boley jd more mature,dimurahkan rezeki,diberi hati yg tenang untuk blajo n boleh memberikan kasih syg yg melebey2 to family n my "hubby"... ^^,