what happen to me??

lepas pkir beberapa kali untuk update blog ni..at last,i update it..seriuzly,dis couple of weeks,zue sndri pun xtau ape sbnrnya jadi kat diri zue..zue murung..zue asyik nk nngs ja..i cannot understand myself...ase useless je..i need someone to cheer me up..zue xminta pun diri zue jd cmni..zue nak epy..nk gelak2...sometymes,i've to lie to my frenz yg zue xckup tdo..sbb 2 mata bengkak..the truth is zue menangis... :'(