NEW YEAR RESOLUTION 2011 ^^,

bpe ari lagi ja lgi kte akan msuk taun 2011..waaaaaaaaaaaa,cepatnya msa berlalu kn..n i'm getting older n older..hehe..msti la msuk taun bru,azam bru pun ada kan...azam saya ada lah ingin blaja sungguh2 di tempat bru ni..nak wat my parents n MR K bangga gila smpai tabik spring...hehe..amin...lg 1 azam...nk smpn duit nak kwn ngan MR K...hahaha...is it too early to save money for wedding??MR K simpan sama tau... n_n...

mood ngah gatal nak kwin...hak3... ^^,

smoga taun bru ni bwa azam bru,cinta yg bertmbh2,rezeki yg berlimpah ruah tp jgn tukar pasangan yg bru sudah... =D

bufday!!!

sape nk blanja saya chocolate indulgence from secret recipe on my bday???angkat tgn....ENCIK KHAIRUL IKHWAN!!!!! tlg blanja saya..sedang mengidam kek ni..haha...

24122010 a.k.a ladies day out..

zany sdng menikmati aiskrim...tp dlm otak stil duk pkir assgmnt yg xciap..hehe.. n_n

we at dino trek 2....

pabila xdpt bercinta ngan wu chun or MR F,zany brcinta ngan dinosour lak.. ^^,

dinosour 2 pun smile... =)

kami hadang muka dinosour 2..die ehem2..

yo yo...what's up??

peace 4 gaza...

at kenny rogers...nyam2 pasta..

hehe... n_0

p.s :- wlaupun outing ni between me n zany,but it's fun..kan lg bez kalo wahid,aina n aini ada...sob3...missing u so much gurlz...

today's mood

feels very2 sad....

depressed.....

mood ari ni xbpe bgus la..keje nk nngs ja..mayb sbb stress nak kna g kl da..cannot celebrate my bday wif family n my sunshine..i don't want to go..do anyone ada remote cm dlm cte click ??tlg "pause" kn masa..i need more time to be at home...

demam nak beli fon bru..

can someone buy me dis handfon...MR K!!!beli jap...

hihi..... n_n

semakin hari semakin dekat...

huhuh...ri ni da 26 december bersamaan ari ahad..jumaat ni da nak kna bertolak g kl...huhu..xnk g..nak duk umah..skang ni mkn xkenyang,mandi xbsah,tidur xlena la..adey...

good news..should i happy 4 that or not..huh

surat nie sampai pada tanggal 11disember 2010...at last,doa zue,mama,abah n orang terdekat termakbul..paling happy skali mama la...happy sbb anak bongsu die dapat spa n xterlepas p kl..aku pun epy juga..tp ntah la nape aku xbpe excited..mayb sbb kna berjauhan ngan my MR K..huhu..kalo nak dpkir2kan,arau pun jauh tp at least stiap ujung mnggu ley blik..ni Z dpt kl n akan duk sna..huhu..xley la nak blik slalu..MR K pun cm xbpe epy..i noe y...bcoz u worried about my safety kan bila kat sana sowang2..tp Z jnji akan jaga diri bek2 n always will love u..satu lagi yg jadi kebimbangan MR K..haha..agak kelakar but I noe it important..slama ni walaupun kami duk uitm kampus berlainan,tp Z slalu remind MR K anything yg d update kat student portal…die takut bila Z da x kat uitm,sape nak remind die…But don’t worry my dear,Z akan tetap truskan my job to remind u any update from stdent portal..jangan isau k sayang…last thursday,kami keluar..hehe..rancangan asal nya both of us nak wat ic bru,tp last2 MR K ja wat..yg lwaknya,ada ke patut pak cik yg tukang amik gambar 2 tnya MR K da kawin ka..haha..da la die ckp kuat2..adey..malunya..npe?kami nampak cm da kawin ka?haha..pas 2 kami h sunway carnival..hehe..kat sana la MR K beli Melody kat Z..so sweet..i lub it so much but i lub tuan yg beli Melody lagi banyak..Mr K pesan bwa tau Melody ni g kl nnt..ni adiah bday..huhu..bila dfkir2kan bday Z da dekat..tapi..huhu..nnt Z da ada kat kl n akan jauh dri famiy n my beloved one..mesti sdeykan..i want to be next to my beloved family n boyfriend during my bday..but I can’t..huhu

ni la Melody yg MR K beli..comel kan...Z akan jaga Melody nie bek2..

p.s :- I love u so much MR K...

Bruno Mars-Just The Way You Are With Lyrics

101 LOVE drugs!! :D

1. You’re my SWEETEST drugs

‎2. I don’t need to pretend to be HAPPY, it just happens~

3. I fall deeply into your SMILE

‎4. Just like a child, I need you as my PILLOW

5. When I walk out, you GRAB me back

‎6. Tears may drop, but you’re there to WIPE it away

‎7. In you, I found the other part of ME

8. You’re my constant DIMPLE every time I smile

9. Each time I think of you, BUTTERFLIES tangle in my stomach

10. You stay on the phone for HOURS even though there's nothing much to say

‎11. When I talk, you actually LISTEN

12. When you smile each time you see my face, you make me feel BEAUTIFUL

13. You make me giggle with GIDDINESS each time you dance Para-Para Sakura - this one no but for me you are my gewdikness

14. Sometimes, both of we are stubborn but you give in FIRST

‎15. You used 'ABG’ instead of ‘SYG’ =)

‎16. In miserable, I still have YOU

17. You TOLERATE each of my childish acts

‎18. You have the KEY to my heart

19. Regardless all the girls in your life, I’m your GIRL

‎20. When I’m jealous, you keep TEASING me with sayang

‎21. Bubbly song keeps remind YOU of me and so do ME

‎22. When you say bye but STILL hang on the phone

‎23. You laugh at me when i do bad jokes

‎24. I can be MYSELF just the way I am

25. You MIMIC me when I wipe my nose

26. Always, you make me smile when I’m in WORST

‎27. Because you said you LOVE me too

28. Your fingers are FREE to make me smile

29. When your eyes shining brightly even I said you’re ITCHY!

30. Without you, I am INCONSOLABLE

31. You COMPLETE my life

32. When you say THANKS for making you laugh

‎33. When ‘I Love You, Soulmate’ SLIP out from your mouth

34. To SOOTHE me up, suddenly you make poems

‎35. I’m boring, but you’re still in LOVE with me

‎36. You’re my DOCTOR when I’m sick

‎37. My heart melt, when you told me you want to be my HUBBY

38. You touched my heart with your kilang tebu MOUTH

39. You think I’m CUTE and expressed it out

‎40. It feels like NOBODY ever knew me before you knew me

41. Even when you say stop surf the net, you CARE

42. Even tough we may be MILES apart, I still feel you’re here by myside, in my heart

43. Being a chubby PANDA makes no different to you

44. Seeing you never make me BORED

45. When you SULK, I still think you’re cute

46. Because you’re really my MIRROR

‎47. When you pretend to be INNOCENT

‎48. When you said you AFRAID I’m getting hurt

49. I’m ADDICTED towards you!

50. You asked for a HUG even just for a moment and even just trough ym

‎51. You HOLD me up when everything seems falling down

‎52. When you said you’re at a worse state, somehow, I still feel you’re at your BEST

‎53. For the first time in my life, YOU ask me to grab you =)

‎54. You invisible but somehow I know you’re still THERE

‎55. We fight-off but then you pretend like NOTHING happen

‎56. I like you because WHO you are

‎57. Always make me NUTS but still manage to WIN my heart

58. I love the way you smile whenever you SEE me

59. Because I’m deeply, madly in LOVE with you

‎60. I fall in LOVE thousands times whenever you smile like that =)

61. I’m stingy but you’re still HERE with me

‎62. You care for me like NO others ever did

63. When you GRAB me back after I wanted to back-off, I never erase the sms

‎64. You draw picture state ‘DEAR,I LOVE YOU!’

‎65. You look SWEET in your red baju melayu

‎66. You’re Cute, Sweet and Small..Like A Little AYAM..Hehe

‎67. When you accused me for swearing that we become ‘ONE’

68. I NEED you in rain and rainbows

‎69. You CHEER me up till I am CRAZY about you

70. Knowing that you will never GIVE up for me

71. Everytime you look at me, you TAKE my breath away

‎72. I love the way you make me LAUGH

73. When we sat and eat together over WEBBY and it feels real

‎74. When i miss you,i will cry when i saw ur picture.

75. When I’m alone, thinking of you and your CHILDISH STUPID WEIRDO acts make me smile

‎76. I love the way you LAUGH and smile back at me

77. You would do anything just to make me HAPPY

78. Your WORDS light up my day with so much joys

79. Whenever I SULK, you’re going to be there instantly to treat me back

‎80. It feels like you’re the ONE for me even in uncertainties

‎81. You’re my LUCKY charm and I feel lucky to have you

82. Without knowing how, WHEN or from where it comes form, I started loving you

‎83. You’re my SUNSHINE that glows fully with love!

84. Because we are MEANT to be together

85. My HEART keeps telling me so!

86. My HEART belongs to you till you return it back to me =)

87. You are on my heart just like a TATOO

88. When you act like we are real, STROKE my head and say ‘sakit Lg’?

89. You want to KISS and HUG me

90. You’re the CURE against my fear and my pain

91. For each time you say you LOVE me, I love you more

92. I’m thinking of you EACH night before I go to bed

93. Stupid! Do I have to give REASONS?

‎94. Look at you, extremely excited over my DRUGS! Hehe*Giggles*

‎95. For a few moments in my LIFE you've made me feel as if I truly meant something to someone

96. Once upon a time, I fell for you, I do know WHEN but I still love you

97. I’m JEALOUS with you, always =P

‎98. When you HURT, I feel it too

‎99. I feel SAFE and sound with you

‎100. I want to SPEND my whole life with you!!

‎101. So much love till i CANNOT STOP AND KEEP SAYING

p.s. :- I LOVE YOU MY FUTURE HUBBY!! :) <3

Hati Seorang Perempuan

Jika seorang wanita itu menangis di hadapanmu,

Itu bererti dia tak dapat menahannya lagi.

Jika kamu memegang tangannya saat dia menangis

,Dia akan tinggal bersamamu sepanjang hidupmu.

Jika kamu membiarkannya pergi,

Dia tidak akan pernah kembali lagi menjadi dirinya yang dulu.

Selamanya….

Seorang wanita tidak akan menangis dengan mudah,

Kecuali di depan orang yang amat dia sayangi.

Dia menjadi lemah.

Seorang wanita tidak akan menangis dengan mudah,

Hanya jika dia sangat menyayangimu,

Tiada lagi rasa egonya,

Lelaki,

jika seorang wanita pernah menangis kerana dirimu,

Tolong pegang tangannya dengan pengertian.

Dia adalah orang yang akan tetap bersamamu sepanjang hidupmu.

Lelaki,

jika seorang wanita menangis keranamu.

Tolong jangan mempersiakannya.

Mungkin kerana keputusanmu,

kau merosakkan kehidupannya.

Saat dia menangis di depanmu,

Saat dia menangis keranamu,

Lihatlah matanya….

Dapatkah kau lihat dan rasakan sakit yang dirasakannya?

Fikirkan….

Wanita mana lagi yang akan menangis dengan murni,

penuh rasa sayang,

Di depanmu dan kerana dirimu..

Dia menangis bukan karena dia lemah.

Dia menangis bukan kerana dia menginginkan simpati atau rasa kasihan.

Dia menangis,

Kerana menangis dengan diam-diam sudah tidak mampu bagi dirinya,

Lelaki,

Fikirkanlah tentang hal itu.

Jika seorang wanita menangisi hatinya untukmu,

Dan semuanya kerana dirimu.

Inilah waktunya untuk melihat apa yang telah kau lakukan untuknya.

Hanya kau yang tahu jawapannya..

Pertimbangkanlah,

kerana suatu hari nanti,

Mungkin akan terlambat untuk menyesal,

Mungkin akan terlambat untuk mohon ‘MAAF’!!

New Addition To My Life.. ^^,

new addition to my life..nama die melody...cute rite..i love it...thanx to my boo boo for giving such a cute "bear"...is it bear?hehe..whatever is it..really appreciate it..

top 3 bear that i love..dlm die smua wat dri bean..from left melody..a gift from my boo boo.tengah 2 i beli guna duit sndri,tiger nama die.n yg knan 2 mama bagi,nama die moo moo..hehe..

I'll Be With You

It was autumn again. Sucking in the warm morning breeze, Mary smiled as she stretched her arms wide, as though embracing the beauty of nature. Jumping up and down in glee, she swirled around in the garden, with her long silky jet-black hair dancing behind her. By anyone’s standards, she was beautiful. Her cherry lips often gave way to smiles and laughter and her eyes a beautiful shade of blue.

She let the wind sting her cheeks as she ran around the garden, shrieking in joy, when she skidded on the fallen leaves only to find herself resting on the strong grasp of a hand. Opening her eyes, her heart momentarily stopped beating as she came face to face with a freckled-faced man. He grinned, revealing a row of yellowish teeth, and then opened his mouth, sending out a weave of nasty stench which smelled like a thousand rotten apples. Mary widened her eyes in horror, shocking the man as he lost grip of her and she fell on the floor.

Moaning miserably, she got up slowly from her supine position and grunted, flinging expletives at the bewildered man. But he only looked down without a word. “Are you mute! Can’t you even say sorry!” Mary cried out in frustration and stomped off. The man sighed and shook his head, picking up his broom to continue sweeping the fallen leaves.

The next day, Mary sat under a tree in the same garden, burying her face in her hands, sobbing uncontrollably. Suddenly, she felt her nose twitch as an unbearable stench gushed into her nostrils and she looked up, only to see a white handkerchief.

“You again” she folded her arms, obviously annoyed. The man lifted his right hand to the side of his forehead, an indication that he was sorry. He then pointed to the handkerchief, motioning her to wipe her tears. “A-Are you really… mute?” Mary stammered, afraid to know the answer. Instead, the man smiled, and distorted his face using his hands so he looked hilariously frightful. Mary laughed, and he whipped out a piece of paper from his back pocket and started scribbling. Like this, a few hours passed.

“If only my boyfriend was as understanding as you, John…” She mused sadly and continued, “But it doesn’t matter anymore.” And they sat in silence in the middle of the garden where brown leaves scattered, and where a beautiful friendship was already blossoming.

Day after day, Mary would look for John in the garden, where he would be sweeping the leaves. They enjoyed each other’s company immensely, even if it meant communicating through scraps of paper. Many a time, Mary did the talking and John, the listening, always ready with a handkerchief to chase away her sorrows. Whenever Mary was feeling down, John would bring her to the fields in the outskirts of the city where sunflowers bloomed its prettiest and hatred never existed. He would urge her to tell her unhappiness to a tree and then carve a tiny happy face at that portion of the trunk. Months soon passed, and this humble tree was soon filled with many happy faces. This was their paradise.

Unfortunately, their love was soon put to the test. It was past midnight. Mary was returning home from work and had taken the short cut through a deserted alley when two big burly men appeared before her. They had similar nasty stench drifting out of their mouths and snorted furiously like demented bulls.

“Leave John alone! He’s better off without women! He belongs with us to the underworld!” One of them boomed. Mary, frightened, shrieked and closed her eyes, muttering a short prayer as she anticipated her life to end at this juncture. Seconds passed, and she gingerly opened her eyes, to see an outline of a familiar figure wrestling with the two burly men. John was punched and kicked about like a rag doll. Blood trickling from his nose and forehead, he was sprawled on the ground, defenseless. “That’s what you get for betraying us,” they smirked in satisfaction and swaggered away.

“John!” Mary cried out, lifting him up and hugging him tightly. Examining his face carefully, she realised that like those burly men, he was filthy and smelly, but unlike them, he had the kindest and most beautiful eyes ever. She had come to love this man for who he was. It was a love that needed no words. Garnering the last ounce of strength in him, he took out the white handkerchief he always carried and held it out to her. She received the handkerchief with trembling hands. Inhaling sharply, she let Niagara Falls come.

“Promise me you’ll never leave me no matter what happens” She whispered. With quivering hands, he took out a scrap of paper and pen. “I’ll always be with you” He assured her. “I swear”. Smiling, she held out her last finger in which he hooked against his and they hugged.

Although belonging to different worlds, one a law graduate from Harvard and the other from the underworld, they never mentioned about their difference in status. Instead, their love only grew stronger after that fateful incident.

One day, Mary was on her way to the garden when a gush of fluid was flung at her face. Instantly, she felt a burning sensation in her eyes and the flash of light was soaked up by the spreading dark patches before her eyes. Her ear splitting screaming reverberated to John’s ears as he sallied forward towards the sound, only to see Mary already unconscious on the ground, and he knew it was the work of the two burly men.

Mary was rushed to the hospital forthwith but it was too late. She was to lose her sight. Her family was devastated and wailed in pain and anguish. Guilt-ridden to have caused misfortune to befall Mary and her family, John made up his mind. He knew what he had to do.

Packing the essentials, he decided to leave and quitted his job as a sweeper in the garden. Looking at the blissful pictures of Mary and himself, he sighed and threw them away.

“Mary! Can you see me?” Aunts jostled towards the weary girl and waved before her. The image she saw was a blur and she felt groggy. However, it was a great blessing that Mary had regained her sight. Looking into the mirror, she was startled to find that her eyes looked somewhat different. They were the same shade of blue, but now they exuberated great warmth and compassion.

Unfortunately, Mary soon realised that John had left her and was devastated. She bawled her heart out and pinned for him day and night. Thinking back on the promise he made to her, she hated him all the more.

One day, she decided to visit their place of paradise to relieve their happy days together. She walked to the tree where she used to pour out her unhappiness and leaned close to the trunk and touched its rough surface filled with happy faces. She wept uncontrollably as she ran her fingers down the trunk. Unexpectedly, she saw the words ‘I’ll be with you’ engraved on the foot of the tree trunk. Glimmers of hope began to light the darkness as she looked earnestly around, but what she saw left her dumbfounded.

On the bench sat a man with a pair of sunglasses and a walking stick. Under the scorching sun, he was sweating profusely and fished out a white handkerchief from his back pocket to wipe the perspiration. Coincidentally, a photo fell out from the pocket as well. With manifold feelings, Mary picked up the photo and looked at herself in the picture and was shocked. The man groped his back pocket for the photo and became flustered when it was no longer there. Slowly, Mary walked over and placed the photo in the man’s hands. It was only then that she tasted the warm salty wetness of her own tears and realised how hard she was crying.

The man bowed in gratitude and flashed his yellowish teeth which glistened in the morning sun.

“I’ll always be with you… “

Looking at the man who loved her so deeply, she smiled. Touching her eyes which were once his, tears streaked down her cheeks. His eyes brimming with her tears.

Cinta Itu Seperti Garam

Amir dan isterinya sedang berada di dapur.

"Abang, sayang minta maaf kerana abang yang terpaksa memasak pada hari ini."

Amir tersenyum.

"Sayang sudah masakkan makanan yang sedap untuk abang hampir setiap hari. Kali ini, biarlah abang pula yang memasak untuk sayang. Sayangkan demam, sayang berehatlah."

Aisyah berkata,

"Tugas memasak, abang serahkanlah kepada Aisyah. Abang sudah seharian bekerja untuk mencari rezeki. Kini giliran Aisyah pula untuk melayani abang. Memasak dan melayan abang adalah kerehatan untuk Aisyah."

Amir berkata,

"Malam ini, biarlah abang yang memasak untuk Aisyah. Bukan selalu Aisyah dapat merasa masakan abang. Aisyah bimbang masakan abang tidak sesedap masakan Aisyah?"

Aisyah tersenyum dan berkata,

"Masakan abang tentulah sedap, tetapi tidaklah sesedap masakan Aisyah."

Amir tersenyum dan membalas,

"Masakan abang makin bertambah sedap. Selepas ini Aisyah akan merayu-rayu meminta abang supaya memasak untuk Aisyah."

Aisyah tersenyum dan berkata,

"Aisyah tahu, abang memasak menggunakan perencah kasih sayang, sebab itulah masakan abang makin bertambah sedap."

Amir tersenyum dan bertanya kepada Aisyah.

"Sayang, berapa banyak garam yang perlu abang masukkan ke dalam masakan ini?"

Aisyah menjawab,

"Abang masukkanlah garam dengan secukup rasa. Jangan terlalu banyak dan jangan terlalu sedikit."

Amir menjawab,

"Boleh sayang tolong abang untuk masukkan garam ke dalam masakan ini? Abang terpaksa mengalah, sayang lebih pakar dalam hal memasak berbanding abang."

Aisyah tersenyum dan menolong suaminya.

"Abang tahu kenapa kita kena masukkan garam dengan secukup rasa sahaja? Kenapa tidak boleh terlalu banyak atau tidak boleh terlalu sedikit."

Amir menjawab,

"Tukang masak profesional mahu menguji abang, ya? Kalau terlebih garam, masakan akan jadi masin dan kalau terkurang garam pula masakan akan jadi tawar."

Aisyah tersenyum.

"Kalau garam perlu dimasukkan dengan secukup rasa, bagaimana pula dengan cinta?"

Amir tersenyum dan menjawab,

"Abang mungkin kalah dengan Aisyah dalam hal memasak, tetapi abang tidak mahu kalah dengan Aisyah dalam soal cinta."

Aisyah tersenyum dan Amir meneruskan kata-katanya,

"Abang berikan cinta abang kepada Aisyah dengan secukup rasa. Cinta yang abang berikan kepada Aisyah, tidak lebih dan tidak kurang. Semoga cinta antara abang dan Aisyah tidak akan melalaikan kita daripada mengingati Allah."

Aisyah tersenyum dan berkata,

"Abang memang pakar dalam bercinta. Makin hari, makin Aisyah cinta kepada abang. Kadang-kadang, Aisyah rasa abang adalah pakar bius. Aisyah dibius cinta."

Amir tersenyum.

"Nasib baik abang tidak menjadi doktor. Kalau tidak, ramai pula pesakit yang terbius dengan bius cinta abang."

Kalau sy da xde . . . . :)(Sediakan Tisu Sebelum Membaca)

Name aku Amir.. Aku de sorg awek.. Sorg??? huhu.. Awek aku ni mmg lawa giler r!! Sbb die lawa tu r aku ngn membe2 aku berebut.. Nasib aku baik la, aku dpt jugak die....memandangkan aku ni pun kategori org yg handsome.. hahaha..

OOPS! lupe! Name awek aku ni Nadia.. Kitorg x same kampung tp satu sekolah.. Satu hari ni aku dpt twrn smbung blajar kt satu IPTA ni.. Awek aku pn dpt.. Alhamdulillah result SPM kitorg cemerlang walaupun aku pun x percaye boleh dpt 7A.. Hahaha.. Tp mmg giler r.. Walaupun kos yg ditawarkn same, tp aku terlambung kt utara n die lak kt Selatan..

Die ni kuat jeles tu jgn ckp laa.. hidup aku dia yg aturkan.. selama aku satu sekolah dulu, jgn hrp la aku nk kuwa ngn membe2 perempuan aku.. Jgnkn kuwa same, pndg pun x boleh.. Kdg2 aku rimas jugak ngn die.. T aku ckp byk ngn die, mau die marah2 then merajuk.. Benci tul aku.. Aku tau die sygggg sgt2 kt aku. Aku tau die mmg x lyn mane2 lelaki yg cube usyar line die.. Kdg2 aku bengang jugak if ade lelaki yg hntr2 msj kt die walaupun die x reply..

Tp sebenarnye aku ade sorokkan sumthing drp die.. Disebabkan kitorg pun da terpisah jauh, aku mule la nk test market kt utara ni.. Jahatkn? Aku rase bebas!!! Aku pn rase die mcm tu jgk kot.. Yelah, die kn lawa.. Msti r ramai jantan usyar die.. Disebabkan aku nk menutup perasaan prasangka yg buruk2 tu, aku mula r berkawan ngn ramai perempuan kat sini.. Setiap kali org tanye status aku, mesti aku jwb aku single.. Aku selalu kuwa ngn member2 perempuan aku kat sini.. Mmg lagak cm org single.. Aku selalu teringatkan die time aku tgh berfoya2.. Bile wktu mlm sebelum tidur, msti die yg call aku.. Aku? Kdg2 kot.. Tp aku syg sgt kt die.. Aku ckp kt die, membe2 aku kt sini semuanye jantan.. Die ckp die pun same.. Sebelum kitorg end call mst die cerita2 kenangan kami bersama.. Die selalu ckp, "kalau sy da x de baru awk leh gatal dgn perempuan lain".. Kdg2 aku mrh die sbb die ckp yg bukan2 walaupun hakikatnya aku mmg da menggatal da pun.. Kdg2 aku selalu jgk create pergaduhan ngn die.. byk kali die nangis time gaduh2 ngn aku.. pernah tu aku tertengking dia.. kesian die.........

"SAYA SAYANG AWAK! SAYA NAK AWAK!"

Tibe2 aku terkejut drp lamunan.. Rupa2nye member perempuan aku, Tiqah.. Aku pn dgn bangang aku terima..

Mase duit PTPTN kuwa, aku beli sebijik henpon lg. Satu henpon khas tok msj Nadia, satu g utk Tiqah.. Dlm tempoh aku belajar kt sini, mcm2 tipu aku wat.. Aku tipu dua2 perempuan tu.. Tp hati aku tetap sygkn Nadia.. Mungkin sbb jauh, perasaan tu kdg2 bercampur.. Tiqah pn mcm Nadia.. Sejak aku couple ngn minah ni, aku dah x kuwa ngn member2 perempuan lain.. semuanya kembali mcm mase aku ngan Nadia dulu.. Aku terasa bersalah sgt.. Tp dlm mase yg same aku just nk hilangkan perasaan bosan sorg2 kat sini.. "Kalau la Nadia tau.." Kdg2 aku terfikir nk berterus-terang.. Tp aku x berani.. Kalau dulu aku tidur pukul 1.30, sekarang ni pkul 3.30 kdg2 pkul 4.. Yelah sbb nk gayut dgn dua2.. Semua org x tahu siapa aku sebenarnya walaupun roomate aku sendiri.. Setiap kali aku balik kampung, Nadia x balik.. Yelah.. U dgn sekolah mane same.. Cuti lain2.. Cume ade sekali tu kitorg dpt cuti same2.. Cuti raye kn.. Time aku jumpa ngn Nadia, aku sorokkan henpon satu lg tu kat rumah.. Nadia makin lawa! Berseri2.. Mane2 lelaki tgok gerenti r cair ni.. Nadia ckp cinta die hanya utk aku.. Selama die berpisah dgn aku, die semakin rindu, semakin syg n cintakn aku.. Utk hilang rase camtu, die habiskan mase dgn belajar.. Kdg2 die ckp belajar smpai tau2 da mlm.. Die happy sbb hati aku masih x berubah utk dia sorang.. ERR! aku terasa bersalah sgt.. "Kalau sy da x de, baru awk leh gatal dgn perempuan len tau!" ckp die sambil tergelak2.. Perkataan tu da berjuta kali kot die sebut.. Aku tgok muke die yg lembut tu.. Die bersuara, kalau habis belajar, die nk aku ikat die sebagai tunang.. Pastu die nk kami kerja, kumpul duit byk2 n kahwin then sambung belajar lg.. Beria2 die menceritakan impian die kt aku...

Permainan aku berlarutan sehingga sem yg ke 4...

Pada satu hari ni aku g makan ngn Tiqah mcm biasa... Heboh kampus aku jd tuan rumah untuk satu pertandingan perbahasan antara IPTA. Kebetulan hari ni ulangtahun ke 3 aku ngan Nadia.. Mcm biase aku g mkn ngn Tiqah kt cafe.. Mase Tiqah tgh ambil lauk, aku terniat hati nk cek msj die.. Terhenti jantung aku, berlambak2 msj sorang jantan yg bersayang2 kt inbox dia.. Aku pn angin r.. Mase Tiqah duduk, aku soal2 dia smpai menangis minah tu.. Sebelum ni x terniat pulak aku nk cek.. Tiqah ckp die ttp sygkn aku.. Aku pun mula terfikirkn Nadia.. Tibe2 ade sekumpulan awek dtg kat meja aku time2 gini la pulak.. X lame pastu aku nmpk Nadia.. Aku menelan air liur.. Rupe2nye, Nadia ambil bahagian dalam pertandingan tu.. Bila Tiqah nmpk ramai2 awek tu dtg kt aku, pelik r die.. N dgn kuasa Allah, semua terbongkar pada saat tu.. N Tiqah sendiri mengaku yg dielah awek aku kt depan Nadia.. Aku tgok Nadia menangis.. Die x bercakap sepatah haram perkataan pun.. Cume die berikan aku sekotak hadiah ulangtahun kami sebelum dia tinggalkn aku.. Aku terus putuskan hubungan aku ngn Tiqah.. Mase aku balik hostel, puas aku call Nadia.. Aku hntr msj berlambak2 kt die.. die x reply pn... Aku sedar, die dah benci aku..

Rupanya Nadia masih menerima aku.. Aku happy sgt2.. Aku berjanji x nk kecewakn die lg.. 2 minggu kejadian itu berlalu.. Org2 sekeliling aku mula menjauhkan diri daripada aku.. Nk2 yg member2 perempuan aku la.. Aku dah x kesah da.. Aku dah berubah.. Aku cuma nk dapatkn keputusan yg cemerlang sampai time akhir sem nanti. Aku nk dptkn kerja baik2.. Apa2 pun aku nk ikat Nadia dulu.. Kdg2 aku berasa malu sgt kt Nadia nk2 bila teringatkn mak ayah dia.. Nasib baik die x pergi report kat mak n ayah dia.. hehe.. Dlm tgh syok2 berangan sambil membelek2 kemeja baru hadiah ulangtahun daripadanya mase hari kejadian tu, tibe2 aku dpt msj drpd member Nadia.. "Nadia eksiden!" Ermm.. Hati aku tibe2 jd x sedap.. Msj kedua drp member die smpai lg.. Terasa panas muka aku bile bace msj tu.. "Nadia da X DE.. Die kne langgar ngan kereta mase lintas jln.." Mcm org gila pas aku bace msj tu.. Aku ambil keputusan balik kejap kampung walaupun terpaksa ponteng kelas..

Aku rase kosong.. Kosong sgt.. Teringat gelak tawa die, teringat suara die, muke die yg lawa tu.. Aku menangis dlm bas.. Aku x peduli ngn org2 yg pndg aku.. Kali ni aku betul2 menyalahkan diri aku.. Semua kenangan aku ngan Nadia bermain dlm kepala aku.. Aku xmampu menahan perasaan sedih ni.. Berulang kali aku bace msj terakhir Nadia mlm td.. "Awk, sy nk tido.. Mcm biase, sy sygkn awk utk selamanye walaupun awk da lukekn ati sy, sy maafkn... Tp ingat! Kalau sy x de baru awk leh gatal ngn perempuan len tau! Hehe.. Nk mrh la tu.. Sy leb awk! Sweet dreamz.." Ya Allah! Kuatkn hatiku ni.. Semasa aku sampai, jenazahnya belum tiba lagi.. Ye.. Aku pun terus mencoretkan kisah ini.. Semoga menjadi pengajaran kt korang.. Air mata aku berguguran sepanjang mencoretkan kisah ni.. Tapi aku tau, Nadia x kn kembali da.. X de lg msj Nadia, panggilan Nadia.. X de dah ungkapan "kalau sy x de" tu dah..